juancarlos, 61 - 25 декабря 2011 00:52

It is frequent to lose the hope when we accept the reality, this reality that eats away our values, with the acts of all those who surround us, when we see that the persons act for interest and in egoistic form, doing that the justice is the justice that is adapted to his motives and desires.
I have lost battle against this impulse of denying values and also I have gained others but always I have gone towards the attitude of applying justice disinterestedly.
In these few written words it is possible to see easily that I have a grudge against the big majority of persons, because I feel that the morality that every society defends, has as the only purpose, to put within reach of the humanity and without having to struggle to reach it, which does not belong to this world and that must be reached with pure feelings, sacrifice and care.
Time behind repented by some lost battles, and with the intention of giving me the second opportunity to find something i was missing since i left the search of it a long time ago, and to what possibly I already had no right to search, because i did not fought that battle with sufficient determination and for having allowed me to defeat, I made a last request to heaven.
I requested and requested and requested to the sky for a second opportunity, accepting that would not be I who fights this battle, accepting other would have to put his will and his effort to achieve my goals, achieving the miracle that my desires are equal to those of this person.
And I knowing of the difficulties of this and of the limited possibilities to achieve it, with much hope and trusting that I had help in the sky, thought my request was listened.
I was confident of having received the second opportunity, and enthusiastically I devoted myself to look for the person who was representing what I wanted to find, after a time feeling a little of disappointed for not finding her, again I requested for a sign to heaven, a sign that could afforded to me, to continue at least the track of this person, but regrettably I was thinking about seeing this sign in more than one opportunity wrongly.
Incredibly one day a sign that more than a sign was looking as a coincidence, did his appearance so clearly that it was even more difficult to think that it should be a real sign, such an extreme coincidence was making to seem to the fact, as something unreal. I yet cannot believe that this was a response to my requests.
But the most difficult thing to believe is that the truth now looks like a falsity, that I already do not know that it is true and that it is a lie and what was looking like a coincidence now looks more as a truth than words that appears in front of our eyes.
This is what happened here, and I do not want to look culprits because I am still a lover of the one who broke my heart, with all the right, because to her my heart belongs.

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